i can't forget what you've forgotten
Sunday, September 16, 2007
isn't it nice how i can have what might be a great thing, and because of some weird hangup or something i have, fuck it up? i wonder what my problem is. why do i never end up happy with what i've got (or could have)? i think i have this unrealistic expectation about what it's supposed to be like: fireworks, skipping beats, and all that stuff. obviously i expect too much out of certain parts of life; my life is not a movie, and things will never turn out in this impossibly idealistic way. logically i know this, yet apparently i'm willing to give up the now for the what might be. i just don't get it.