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An Open Letter to Myself Five Years from Now

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Dear FutureMe,
You had stuff written here but then clicked on a link which loaded in this tab and your writing went away. So we'll start again.
Right now you're sitting in your Warsaw st. apartment. The National is on tv, and Tigress is roaming the apartment. Jennie's gone for the night to Kurt's, so it's just you and the cat.
The National is covering the sponsorship scandal, remember that? Crazy stuff. I hope Stephen Harper never became Prime Minister.
You're typing on a 2.5GHz Pentium4, with 1G RAM.
Anyways, what's up? Jamie flew back to Thompson today, I wonder what's become of her.
I hope you have more passion in your life. Not just for a person, but for life itself. I hope you do something more productive with your time than you do now. Five years ago you 'celebrated' five years with the bank. Part of me hopes you still work for the bank, but part of me hopes you've quit and are doing something that you find more fulfilling. I hope you're braver than you were five years ago, and take more chances. I hope you're with someone you love, if that's what you want.
Five years ago you weren't sure. You'd been single for probably more than four years, and had become more than accustomed to it. I hope you're emotionally more mature than you were five years ago. Because you were single for so long, and your first relationship was a long one you felt as if you never developed some of the emotional skills that you should have at the time of this composition. If you're single and happy than good. If you've found that one person for you than even better. Ugh, I just hope that you're more outgoing, maybe. I'm not even sure about that. See? I hope you're more decisive and less apathetic.
I wonder if you've talked to the girl who lived in the apartment building across the back lane. Probably not, a meeting would have to be kismet.
You're probably reading this and wondering about the mixed tenses, but you try writing something to the future making reference to things that are in the future, but may be in the past when it's read.
I hope you have the occasion to travel more. I really want to go to europe, so you better honour that.
MSN is on version 7.0. I'm going to guess that when you're reading this it's version 12.0.
I hope Canada stands for more about what it should stand for in the world, and that it's exercising its potential.
I wonder if you found yourself back at university. Five years ago part of you really wanted to just quit work and go back to university and live that life again, because life seemed that much simpler back then. If not, I hope you at least managed to take some evening courses to keep your brain limber. Five years ago you wished that you were more well-read, or intelligent.
Writing this five years ago your greatest fear was that you'd accomplish nothing of what you typed in here, and that you'd be in the exact same spot you are now. Granted, five years isn't that far off, but who knows what will become of this site, or the email address you sent this to, so you decided that five years seemed to be the most workable timeframe.
All these things I hope, but to the exclusion of any of those things, I hope you're still you and haven't changed who you are for someone else.

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