Thursday, September 14, 2006
In interest of doing some research for myself into Kimveer Gill's blog/profile, I headed over to google to see if I could find a cache of his profile. I'd heard that the profile had been shut down by the police, and as it turns out I'm not skilled enough, but I headed over to boingboing.net and found that Xeni had posted a google cached copy of his profile on vampirefreaks.com. Sure, I'd heard news folk talk about things contained in there, but I know that news people tend to be idiots when it comes to anything internetly. I also wanted to see what more that was to him than what the media covered. They seemed to mainly focus on the fact that he played Postal, was a 'goth', wore a trenchcoat, and generally hated everything.
His profile is filled with quizzes and surveys, such things as 'how depressed are you', and 'how will you die?' (suicide, which incidentally was the way he went). Strangely, in the 'what is your heart filled with?' survey, he scored highest on 'wonder'; 'hate' was second.
He prefered group dates over single dates, chocolate over vanilla, and has been in love. His goal for this year was to 'stay alive'. To the question 'How would you like to die?' he answered 'Like Romeo & Juliet, or in a hail of gunfire.'
Amongst his 'likes', he lists: Heavy metal, Germany, first person shooters, kittens, swords, sawn (sic) off shotguns, assault rifles, semi-automatic handguns. He lists his favourite tv shows as: The Daily Show, Chapelle's Show, and Law and Order: SVU.
His list of 'hates', ends with: 'GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING JOCKS'.
He filled out a 'what crime would you most likely commit' survey, to which he scored 'murder'.
Anyone interested in looking at his page can follow this link.
His pictures appear to still be available online, and have been commented on by people after his death. The pictures and comments can be viewed here. They may not be available later this evening.
Is this all morbid? I don't think so. Unless it's morbid to want to try to know more about someone's motives and life. What he did was an incredibly awful and pointless thing, and I'm in no way condoning or accepting his actions.
We talked about that issue today in sociology class. I actually wouldn't mind taking a look at his blog/profile, just to see, you know? I'm glad you have all the links.
No one actually knows what he was honestly thinking. And it is true, it was a pointless an awful act. You wonder why people do such things.
It was an awful act no doubt.
But how can we not wonder what turned a person into committing such a heinous crime?
I think we tend to just want to condemn a person such as this and leave it at that. But shouldn't why try to understand this person's life so that we can pre-empt the next Kimveer Gill?
Christielli
You will never be able to intervene in desperation. Not % 100 percent. Many are quietly desperate. or the desperation is so sudden, so acute, that there are no signs. Its just a fact of life we have always lived with and always will. In kimveers case, there were signs galore: His profile was ride with grandiose, nihilistic missives and projections. His picture profile was full of weapon-wielding "predictions". There are indications he was mentally ill. Perhaps a good place to start is simply by being a good person to others. Intervene in unwarranted attacks on people, don't herd people behind a security wall because they are different. Say a few kind words to the next person who appears dejected, or lacking esteem. I wonder if more of these kinds gestures wouldt have helped. Could they have hurt? Be good people. Step 1.
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